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Definition of bittersweet (adj)

bit·ter·sweet

1. both bitter and sweet: smelling or tasting both bitter and sweet at the same time
2. both happy and sad: causing feelings of happiness and sadness at the same time

 See this girl here? Her name is Brittany, and she is one of my dearest friends in Christ. We've played soccer together for three years, and just in the past two months we've grown so very close. I got to attend formal with her and Robert, and it was kind of amazing. She graduates highschool in about three weeks, and this fall will be heading sixteen hours away for college. I don't know how I'm going to survive next year without her.

 

 

See this baby here? His name is Seth Titus, and he belongs to Stephen and Lindsey, youth pastor/wife at my church. Finding out about Miss Lindsey's pregnancy was the most joyful moment of my life, climaxed only by the first time I got to hold Seth as a newborn. Pastor Steve is now deployed, and I'm struggling with missing him, caring for Seth and Miss Lindsey, and hiding my own pain in the process.

 

See these girls here? They're the seven girls I've bonded with most this soccer season; my defenders, most of whom are freshmen. Getting to know them has been one of the best experiences of my life, as has been moving in to the role of their leader on the field. I never could have guessed how much laughter these young ladies would have brought me, and I cannot express how thankful I am for their friendships. Next soccer season is rather up in the air, and all I know is how dear these seven girls are to me.

 Bittersweet sums up the past week of my life, with relationships growing and then these same people suddenly being whisked out of my life.
As Brittany prayed for the team her last highschool game, I thanked God for her friendship, yet ached for her departure next fall.
The day Pastor Steve left, as I watched him baptize his own son and the congregation sang In Christ Alone, my heart and lips were joyful, while the tears coming from my eyes were sorrowful.
Sitting at dinner with Molly, Zoe, and Dori, then watching them experience triumph with each other after our championship game, I felt happy they could be so free together and melancholy we would never have this weekend back again.

Bittersweet is a word I've been using so often, it's practically a part of me. Every taste of honey in my life is coming with a pill to swallow that is sweet and hurtful at the same time.

I don't think I'll mind it when this bittersweet stage ends.

-L