so very restless

How the world can get me down sometimes! It gets to the point where I want to do nothing....absolutely nothing.

 You know the feeling? It's when everything in your life is absolutely crazy, confusing, and convuluted. When you wish you could just be alone. When you don't know what God is telling you to do. When unpleasant things from your past keep recurring in your mind. When you can't stop comparing yourself to other girls. When you feel like crying yourself to sleep. When you can't get your thoughts down on paper clearly. When you wonder if you'll ever amount to more than just a teenage girl who dreams silly dreams. When that one guy is absolutely wonderful, yet just beyond reach. When even a Relient K song doesn't make you feel any better. When nothing describes how you feel except Elizabeth Bennet pining over her own misfortunes. When nothing makes makes you feel normal again, except for this Psalm:

"But now, Lord, what do I look for? My hope is in You."

Psalm 39:7

yep.....that's how I feel now. Not the best feeling in the world....but I suppose it shall soon pass.

I am determined that nothing but the deepest love could ever induce me into matrimony.

Teehee, can you tell I've been reading a lot of Jane Austen? Over my break, I finished reading Pride and Prejudice {for the second time}, watched the BBC 1995 movie, and started to read Emma.

And I've realized something very important.
I belong in a Jane Austen novel.

More specifically, Pride and Prejudice. After reading the book and seeing a {six hours long!} version of it, I definitely want to be Lizzy Bennett. Sure, she had some tough times.....but look at the handsome gentleman she picked up!

Ah.......how sweet (:

I mean, the fact that her dresses were drop-dead-gorgeous, there was actual ballroom dancing, and she had the perfect older sister makes her life rather wonderful.

Oh, and she got to marry this guy

Do you think that, in Heaven, we'll be able to wear anything we want? If so, this will be my outfit. Permanently!

.....and she got to live here. Lucky girl!

Pride and Prejudice is officially one of my favorite books and movies. Well, at least the 1995 version is. The 2005 one, with Kiera Knightley, wasn't horrible.....but they left so much out! And, like my mom says----Colin Firth makes a much better Mr. Darcy. ;)

That being said, I still adore this hairstyle for Lizzy. Creepy stare going on, though.

So now, I think I can call myself an official Jane Austen fan. Oh, if only I could spend a week in Pride and Prejudice......what a dream come true that would be!!

How big of a Jane Austen fan are you? And what book would you want to spend a week in?