nothing without Providence*

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Aunt Debbie went to be with our Lord this past week. Honestly, it really didn't sink in until last night, when I sobbed quietly in my bed. Funny how you only need one good cry for everything to be in perspective.

Things have had the usual numbness since Dad informed us we'd be heading out to Colorado for the funeral. All I've wanted to do this week is read sad books, listen to sad songs, and watch television shows to get my mind off matters. It's partly working, but taking one look at my dad or mom's face brings me back to reality. Then you pass strangers in public who smile at you, or a friendly waiter cracks a joke, and for whatever reason you feel like bursting out in to tears. It's the little things that set you off, you know?

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 But God is good, and we have the means to visit Aunt Debbie's family this week. We'll be driving cross country, and this East Coast gal is ready to see Kansas plains, the St. Louis Arch, and Colorado mountains. And who knows? Maybe we'll get the chance to swing through a certain town in Kentucky *wink wink*

It may seem odd to say---but I'm getting good at dealing with death around me. I pray it never becomes commonplace, but at least a loved one's passing doesn't shock me in to paralysis anymore.

You followers have been wonderful! Upon my return, I should have lots of pictures, detailing my trip 'round our beautiful America.

forever yours,
-L