Sometimes, I feel afraid

Of the usual things: spiders, heights, the dark.

But, I am also afraid of.......love.

I'm afraid of falling in love with the wrong person; of getting my heart broken by some guy who sweeps me off my feet. I'm afraid of getting in too deep, then realizing how wrong it was. I'm afraid of getting so involved with someone, having it end badly, then leaving a part of my heart behind.

Of course I want to know that feeling of being hugged by someone special; that first-kiss feeling. I want all of that....but I'm still afraid of love!

I mean, when you're "with" someone, you put every ounce of yourself into that relationship. You share things with that person, things that are special. And I'm not talking about one's purity, or even kisses! Just memories, and stuff like pictures. If things sudden go wrong, then what? You can burn the cards he sent you, or cut him out of your photos. But you can't simply cut a person from your heart and mind.

There are those things that always stay with you, that can never be removed. And what of that time wasted? No matter what, those moments and hours are gone forever.

I do believe in true love, and I think it's a wonderful thing! But it still scares me sometimes.

okay, so I know this was kind of a weird post....but I just felt I needed to get it off my chest. And this is the best place to do it, right?