a fresh, unedited start

listening to: "on the wing" by Owl City.

quote love: "the sea was calm, with a fresh wind blowing from the south-east;they sailed under a sky of azure where God was also lighting up His lanterns, each one of which is a world." 

~ The Count of Monte Cristo

{this post is going to have no editing....just me typing whatever comes to mind. Enjoy ;)}

I been feeling so tired lately. It's a good tired, but still....my body aches every time I move. It could be from all the piggy-back rides I've given while babysitting. Or from helping kids at gymnastics camp learn how to do walkovers. Of course, it's probably just from soccer practice last night. *laughs*

I've been feeling so happy lately. My past week or so has been filled with kids, soccer, and The Count of Monte Cristo. Babysitting is seriously the best job on the face of the earth. It pays well, little kids are hilarious, and I get free snacks......which is totally awesome. My soccer team is finally starting to feel more like home. The girls are becoming more outgoing, which is really comforting. I'm about halfway through TCMC, and I'm pleasantly surprised by how good it is! There are so many awesome quotes, like the one above. I love the beauty of Dumas' writing!

I've been feeling so stressed lately. Classes will start up soon, and this year is going to be crazy. Just thinking about it makes me sick with worry. *groans* I'll get through it somehow, I suppose. It seems like everywhere I turn, someone I know or love needs urgent prayer. And when all I can do is pray, I feel rather helpless. I'm kind of a control-freak, and I like being able to do something. But for things like cancer......all I can do is leave it in God's hands. 

I've been feeling so excited lately. Today, an earthquake hit where I live! Which is totally and utterly crazy, 'cause we don't really get earthquakes here on the East Coast. I need a t-shirt that says, "I survived the earthquake of 2011." My church got a new pastor, and so we've been getting used to him and his family. He has three daughters close to my age, and they are so awesome! For the past eight years they've been missionaries in Uganda, which means plenty of interesting stories to share. 

I've been feeling so restless lately. With the air outside slowly turning crisp, my heart is desiring to go somewhere new and exciting. Mostly Europe, but right now I would take any place that I haven't visited before. Why can't I have family somewhere in New York City or South Carolina? I could really use a break from everyday life.

I've been feeling like myself lately. And it is quite nice, just being myself. No more pretending that everything is okay, or that I live a perfect life; no more editing out all the 'bad' or 'boring' stuff. Just me, my thoughts, my dreams, my worries. I do hope you'll join me as I learn more about me and God's desire for my life.

linking up to the challenge over at Dramatic Elegance, hosted by Rachel.