I'd like to say that 9/11 hasn't affected my life that much.....but it has.
I'd like to say that my feelings about 9/11 are the same as they were in this post.....but they've changed.
I'd like to say, with pride, that I've forgiven those terrorists who killed themselves and my fellow countrymen...but I can't.
I'd like to say that I finally understand why God let it happen.....but I really don't.
I'd like to preach to y'all, like I did last year, about how we should feel compassion for those terrorists who didn't know God....but how can I, when I still don't feel that compassion myself?
I'd like to say that I stay strong emotionally when I hear stories about that day.....but I break down whenever I'm alone.
I'd like to say that I trust God completely with what happened ten years ago....but I haven't gotten that far yet.
I don't know if I'll ever truly forgive those people who committed such horrible, terrifying acts against my country. And, to be honest.....I don't want to.
And so, ten years later, I'm still stuck in the same place I was: I know I should forgive; I know I should just accept that it happened; that God has a plan for everything.
But my human heart just can't seem to do it.
8 comments:
i definitely know what you mean about having a tough time forgiving those terrorists and i really appreciate your honesty to us, girl! i'm sure most (if not all) of us feel the same way about what happened on that day...
I know exactly what you mean. It truly breaks my heart. I was listening to Chris August new-ish song 7x70 and I kept thinking about 9/11.
"7 times 70 times
If That's the cost I'll pay the price
7 times 70 times
I'll do what it takes to make it right
I thought the pain was here to stay
But forgiveness made a way".
I want to make things right but yet it is so very hard.
Praying for you, me, and I'm sure many other people this week.
I completely understand Lily, because that's exactly how I feel. I cry, and anger rises up in me when I watch the videos about it.
I don't understand why it happened. :(
big hugs, xxxx~Kels
I know exactly how you feel. I have a hard time feeling anything remotely resembling love and forgiveness to those that did this, and those that support them. And like you, I don't even want to feel anything good towards them. Maybe someday...
Love ya <3
Lauren
Jazzie~ i <3 that song! Chris August is ah-MAZ-ing :)
so i've never commented on a blog before and I have one of my own but haven't gotten around to fixing it up and actually using it, but I wanted to add my two cents.
I totally love this post, Lily because I know it's from your heart and I understand how you feel because I feel the same way. We watched a video clip in school on Friday and I was crying the whole time. The part that struck me the most was seeing the plane go into the second building and explode. I don't know which would have been worse - being a passenger on one of the planes and knowing that you were going to die and not be able to do anything about it, or be one of the people in the tower and not know you were going to die. The sad thing is that our world has been changed forever by this - but we are willing to stand together and fight back for our country and all the lives that have been lost.
I still haven't gotten over it. Even though it didn't impact me directly, such as a family member or friend getting killed, it still did affect me. I hav emore respect for our military and our policeman, firefighters, and first responders now more than ever.
Sorry this is such a long comment - :)
I understand how you feel dear, but remember He does have a plan for everything. Remember God is the solid rock, which we can find safety in! forgiving is so hard sometimes, but if you surrender yourself to him it's so easy sometimes. he's always been faitful and every trial he uses for good!
Thank you for posting this. It's from your heart and true. And also remember events like this only make our country stronger, not build us down.
i totally get what you're saying, lil. i'm still trying to understand, too. but through it all - the worst tragedy our nation has ever experienced - He never abandoned us. He was there. He cared. He still does. and that's what leaves me wondering. wondering why He didn't. our nation was once His, and now you can get in trouble for mentioning Him in school. our nation is killing innocent babies and acting as though there's nothing wrong with it. why He hasn't abandoned us is still a mystery to me. He loves us that much. that's crazy.
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