For the past week or so, God and I have been having a rocky time.
Check that: I've been having a rocky time. I've been wondering a lot about my future lately, and I have tons of questions......but not really any answers. Being the slight control-freak that I am, I like knowing what's coming; I like being prepared. But for things like college, jobs, and love, I have no idea what's coming.
I felt especially far from God on Sunday. Watching the memorial services on TV and seeing the grief-stricken faces on the 9/11 families made me almost angry with God.
The next few days consisted of me moping around, mad at myself for being angry with God {I think that made sense}. Then, on the way to classes yesterday, one of my favorite songs came on....and these lyrics hit home, big time.
I felt especially far from God on Sunday. Watching the memorial services on TV and seeing the grief-stricken faces on the 9/11 families made me almost angry with God.
The next few days consisted of me moping around, mad at myself for being angry with God {I think that made sense}. Then, on the way to classes yesterday, one of my favorite songs came on....and these lyrics hit home, big time.
He is jealous for me,
Loves like a hurricane,
Loves like a hurricane,
I am a tree,
bending beneath the
bending beneath the
weight of His wind and mercy.
When all of a sudden,
I am unaware of these afflictions
When all of a sudden,
I am unaware of these afflictions
eclipsed by glory,
And I realize just
And I realize just
how beautiful You are,
And how great Your
And how great Your
affections are for me.
I could have kissed David Crowder's fuzzy, bearded face for writing those words above. That last stanza: and I realize just how beautiful You are and how great Your affections are for me---wow.
God loves me, even when I'm angry with Him. His love toward me will never change, even when my fickle feelings do. Another part of the song is this: if His grace is an ocean we're all sinking.
We really are all sinking in the ocean of God's grace. He has no obligation toward us bratty, silly humans....and yet, He still loves us.
Isn't that amazing?
6 comments:
i love that song. it's my favorite of all time. and that's saying A LOT. because you know what a music freak i am ;) but yeah. my favorite lyric is 'and heaven meets earth like an unforeseen kiss and my heart turns violently inside of my chest. i don't have time to maintain these regrets when i think about the way He loves us.'♥
Lily, its so amazing me and you and me are going through similar things right now. The future does seem uncertain, bt how lovely to think she loves us! We hated him but he calls us him Beloved!
I love this song. So glad for this post, always good to know someone knows your pain :)
LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE that song!
Ahh, that song is just beautiful. It's such a good reminder of God's huge, unconditional love for us. Incredible, isn't it?
That is my all time favorite song!!!! Anna, thats my favorite line too! :D
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